what i gonna do if,.......

Nowadays, I always think about my life. Start my new day, I begin thinking about it. What should i do if `this` happen to me, what should I do if `that` happen to me. I just an ordinary girl that would woke up in the morning on 6.55 to `solat subuh`, than take a shower, took a deep morning fresh air, wore my `baju kurung`or`T shirt` n go to clases as usual. Every step n every time I hit the floor, there must be something in my mind. Something that will make me annoyed, happy, sad n sometimes make me on top of human level critical thinking to solve it, haha,.every time i feel that, where else i gonna go,.ABSOLUTELY LAY ON MY BED. Wah,.. so relaxing. with the poster of SUPER JUNIOR, BIG BANG, n DBSK,. haha..

I learn about something that almost important to everyone have the same story as me. That is `if you feel bad on your life, stuck, n painful, but you must do n done it, the profit you get is something that make you satisfy n you never imagine what a wonderful profit you will get`.haha,. this is the real story u know,...

Melayu phrase: `Bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.`

: The hardest thing first, the profit is next. hakhak

: Every cloud has a silver lining (this is the best line)huhu

That is what I learn!!!!!!!!

huhu,. now i realize, to have something, there`s no easy way to get it. You must struggle n WORK HARD. Nothing will come to your front side just only you wish n pray for it. For me, 2006 - 2007 is the hardest part in my life . Before, I live with my parents until i got to live in hostel. I live at the hostel for two years but I feels like I`am in hell for a thousand years. I hate it.!!! Before, I always feel freedom at home. its `HOSTEL`. Everybody know what its feels like. Not everybody love it. But, I have an experiance being alone on doing something on my own. my own decision. But I hate to decide anything. I still believe, other person decision is more better than I am. what a useless person I am. hakhak..

positive thinking is not always with me...

what should i do,........

I need somebody take me to the right place n teach me to make a better decision on my own..

This time i just make a desicion,.. I write this in english language..eventhough i know, many grammer has gone with the wind,...hakhak......

If nobody understand what i write,.i understand that....hakhak....

If you are student, you still can enjoy YOUR life but believe that, its has a limit time of enjoy..

p/s : just want to remind my self n others.